thirteen ways of looking

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 11:03:31 GMT

i'm so tired.....just too tired.....spring break can't get here soon enough. i'm going to see failure to launch with zach on friday. has anyone seen it? if so, was it any good? just wondering......

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 14:52:00 GMT

i think that today we might go to the irish fesitval. :)
i was going through all the college stuff with mom and dad yesterday and i'm thinking about uva, clemson, usc, and some others.....don't know yet

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 02:29:03 GMT

has rocky road always had chocolate covered almonds? i thought they were just regular almonds.....

little kids are the cutest

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 02:24:08 GMT

this lady next door asked me to help her out in the evenings. she's got two kids, gabe, a toddler, and isaiah, a wee little thing. so i was at her house for two hours this evening. it was so cute! isaiah is the cutest baby. he fell asleep while i was holding him, but it took about an hour for him to be totally out. but he was so small and fragile. it's amazing the body heat those kids can produce though :)
marking period tests are this week. i think i aced my algebra one today and world studies shouldn't be that hard tomorrow. i'm actually studying for it. i'll have to study for biotech....but that's another day. right now, i need to finish off my rocky road ice cream and go to sleep. tennis match tomorrow...guys and girls vs. powhatan. go us.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 11:42:53 GMT

we have a two hour delay today. too bad i can't go back to sleep. and it's the cheesewagon express as soon as nine o'clock rolls around.

Smile....it's snowing :)

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 11:35:40 GMT

Some people are like slinkies...not really good for anything but you can't help but smile when you see one falling down the stairs.

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 03:53:58 GMT

i was so glad to see sarah yesterday. she looks great. i'm so proud of her. the air force was really good for her.
it was kind of scary today on the drive to memphis. there was this big ice storm and the roads were coated in ice. the traffic was at a standstill. so it took three times as long as it should have to get here. it's been a really long day.
i'm dreading going back to school. i don't want to have to do all that catch up crap for all my classes. i can't wait for the summer. and i'm tired of the cold. i don't want to be cold ever again. it was in the teens all day today and i really didn't like it.
and i'm so glad that mom's with us again. it makes everything better. well, no it doesn't but it does make everything seem and feel better, even though nothing else has really changed. just the same old crap. but now mom's here and it's better

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 19:21:53 GMT

I've screwed up big time. i have this big research paper for biotech and i forgot it was due tomorrow and i left all my crap at school. crapola.
we leave in eight days. it'll be great to get away. except that everything will still be the same when i get back.
we're reading hot zone in biotech. everybody says that it's such a gross and disgusting book but i am not finding it to be repulsive. sure it would be gross to have ebola but the way it all works is really interesting.

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 01:22:58 GMT

i found out that i won second place in an art contest. it was a design for the goochland anti litter and recycling council. i was actually surprised when my art teacher told me. i've never won anything before. in fact, i never win. we played bingo for nearly an entire class period and not once did i win or even come close to winning. but that's ok. so the prize for this contest was a $75 savings bond and my design is going to be printed on the back of their t-shirt. and sam won fourth place; he got a $50 savings bond and his drawing is going to be on an earth day poster.
so i was very excited when i heard that. :)

first exams today. french was alright. i mean i thought it was pretty easy but i have a really bad feeling about it. i think i missed several questions which is not a good thing at all. and the speaking part was awful. i really don't like speaking into the mike and having what i'm saying be recorded.
then came algebra. i thought it was easy and i think i did well. there were a few that i wasn't absolutely positively sure about, but it was multiple choice and i answered all of them so i know that one's okay.

i have art and gym tomorrow. they should both be easy too. art, i just need to look over the artists that we're supposed to know and for gym, i need to look over the short answer questions on the drivers ed section.

we're not having seminary this week which is good and bad. i really do like going to seminary even if the other kids don't participate at all and obviously have no desire to be there and over half the time we start at least ten minutes late. but i enjoy going and being ready for the day early and having time in the morning to discuss the scriptures that we're reading. so it's kind of bad that we don't have it this week but i was the one who said we shouldn't so i can't really complain. and it's good too. i get to sleep in another hour and i know that's always good. :)

i drew this really cool tree today before my algebra exam. it was actually more like a scribble but i like it. it's on the cover of my french book. it's this really big tree on the spine so half the tree is on the front of the book and the other is on the back. on the front, i have clouds, green leaves, grass and flowers and on the back i have orange, yellow and red leaves, some on the branches, some falling with brown and yellow grass and a swing hanging from one of the branches. i was feeling quite artistic.

speaking of artistic, i really want to learn to oil paint. so if anybody reads this and knows anything about it, speak up please. it's something i've always wanted to do but have felt that i never really could. but since i don't know how, i'd like to learn and try it before i totally reject it as something i can't do.

Dead Tired

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 10:43:09 GMT

Exams are next week and I have been studying like crazy. and I the rough draft for my biotech research paper is due today. I was up until 12:40 last night finishing it...and now I'm back up at five--my jeans are in the dryer. Dad marked on the calendar how many days until we go to get mom--26 today. I think he misses her. I do too for that matter. I talk to her when she calls sometimes but just for a little while. She sent an email yesterday along with pictures of her room. I couldn't get the pictures to download with our million year old slow as molasses dial up that disconnects nearly every time someone tries to call so you can't really download anything anyway. But dad said that he'd do it at work and bring the pictures home. Did you know that the Navajo culture is matriarchal? I had no idea. Mom said the women have more of a say in things like property and such. I thought that was a bit interesting...

thirteen ways

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 16:09:39 GMT

Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird
Wallace Stevens

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I
Among twenty snowy mountains,
The only moving thing
Was the eye of the blackbird.

II
I was of three minds,
Like a tree
In which there are three blackbirds.

III
The blackbird whirled in the autumn winds.
It was a small part of the pantomime.

IV
A man and a woman
Are one.
A man and a woman and a blackbird
Are one.

V
I do not know which to prefer,
The beauty of inflections
Or the beauty of innuendoes,
The blackbird whistling
Or just after.

VI
Icicles filled the long window
With barbaric glass.
The shadow of the blackbird
Crossed it, to and fro.
The mood
Traced in the shadow
An indecipherable cause.

VII
O thin men of Haddam,
Why do you imagine golden birds?
Do you not see how the blackbird
Walks around the feet
Of the women about you?

VIII
I know noble accents
And lucid, inescapable rhythms;
But I know, too,
That the blackbird is involved
In what I know.

IX
When the blackbird flew out of sight,
It marked the edge
Of one of many circles.

X
At the sight of blackbirds
Flying in a green light,
Even the bawds of euphony
Would cry out sharply.

XI
He rode over Connecticut
In a glass coach.
Once, a fear pierced him,
In that he mistook
The shadow of his equipage
For blackbirds.

XII
The river is moving.
The blackbird must be flying.

XIII
It was evening all afternoon.
It was snowing
And it was going to snow.
The blackbird sat
In the cedar-limbs.

procrastination

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 16:01:26 GMT

It's strange how sometimes when you're scared, it causes you to procrastinate, as if you're afraid that you won't be able to do whatever you're trying to do as well as you think you should do it. Then you end up putting it off, one day, then another till it all adds up and it's been weeks since you should have done it, which makes it harder than ever. Jacob made this LJ for me, which i love-thanks jake!, but i think i may have been a little nervous about writing in it. I'm not near as creative as any of the others nor am i an eloquent writer as so many of you are. So i have a feeling this is going to happen slowly, at least until i get used to it.